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I was the middle child and the only girl between my older brother and my younger brother, Gerard. After the birth of Gerard, my mother was ravished by the disease schizophrenia. When you have a mother that has the worst form of schizophrenia, the middle child becomes a parent to the younger sibling. And Gerard always felt like my child.

My father was burden down with raising three children and taking care of my mother. …

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I must tell about my experience while I was writing my memoir. Three years ago, I woke up one morning and decided I wanted to write about my life.

That thought must have produced a lot of matter because it was two days afterward I noticed an article in the newspaper that there was a writer’s group nearby.

I joined the writer’s group, and I started drafting my memoir.

I would get up every morning at five-thirty and start writing. I led with my first childhood memory. The writing just flowed. I could sense my mother and the rest…

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I’ve been watching the trial of George Floyd’s murder. And like many others, I have witnessed his tragic death. I am a retired registered nurse and have been at the bedside of many of my patients dying. But none of that prepared me for the murder of George Floyd.

I watched the video when Chauvin’s knee is on George’s neck. I could perceive when George drew his last breath and noticed his life that left his body. It stunned me into another magnitude of despair.

The helplessness on George’s face etched inside the core of my being. …

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After the demise of my mom, the sorrow I suffered from her loss reached the pit of my existence and a release of my inner child. Many days I had extreme despair and buckled to my knees in prayer to God. There was no one else who could save me.

I was crying out and saying, “I want my mommy” just like a child would do. All mothers know the sound of their children calling for them. It was a wailing of my childhood emotions. …

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Thou shall call his name Jesus; for it is he that shall save his people from their sins” Matt. 1:21

Metaphysical definition. The I in man, the self, the directive power, the I Am identity. Jesus represents God’s ideas of man in expression; Christ is the idea in the absolute. Jesus Christ was the type of man, which includes all the mental phases through which man passes in demonstrating life’s problems. So we find Jesus Christ passing through all the trials, temptations, and mental variations of each of us, “yet without sin.” Metaphysical Bible Dictionary

Jesus Is Tested, in the Wilderness

Metaphysical meaning of temptation —…

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There are many things in one’s life, but not many are the love of your life — as well as the pillar of your existence. That pillar would be my daughter, Crystal. My daughter, Crystal, was born when I had just turned seventeen in 1970. What society judged as a mistake due to my age and her father being black — instead made her became the one and only complete love of my entire life. From the moment she was born, it confirmed to me she was God in action.

She was perfect and beautiful and full of affection and…

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When I said I do and left everything, I knew
I never had a chance
You had your life already made, and your
surroundings were the same

I walked away and followed you
It was fine until I expressed what I felt inside
Many times my lonely feelings you denied

Get yourself a life, make new friends, you said
How can you understand the relationships that I
had developed that were far away?

I was grieving for my family that I left to start a new with you
Resentments I held within concerning the move I entered in

I was…

Bernadette DeCarlo

Writing has healed me in ways that I could have never imagined.

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